PART TWO

Well, that was what had happened on last Friday and I broke into tears after that phone call with no one to talk to about my pain inside which hurted badly. I couldn’t concentrate during my tuition examinations and I couldn’t sleep. I managed to cry myself to sleep and wake up with red eyes and a minor headache. My friends are my life and this entire problem started because of ME!!! So, I am depressed. Right now, I’m unable to speak to them and pleaded to them to stop pestering me with smses and calls as I need more time to heal. Shelly called me and told me to read Cosmos blog and she was upset about all the lies written about her. Here’s how harsh it was:

WHO DOES THAT B***H THINK SHE IS? SHE IS A FAKER AND I CAN SEE THROUGH HER DISGUISE!!! SO WHAT IF YOU LIKE HIM? THE ONLY REASON THAT SHE BEFRIENDED US WAS TO GAIN INFORMATION ABOUT HIM FROM US!!! CAN’T SHE SEE THAT WE ALL HATE HER? WE DON’T EVEN WANNA GET TO KNOW YOU!!! JUST BECAUSE YOU ARE FRIENDS WITH MY FRIENDS DOESN’T MEAN THAT YOU ARE WELCOMED HERE. YOU MIGHT THINK THAT I’M A CUTE AND SWEET GIRL BUT YOU HAVE MESSED WITH THE WRONG GIRL!!!

Now, that really shocked me as I read her blog as I had never expected her to be so mean to anyone but apparently she is. Here’s all her post on facebook on my friend, Shelly.
Can you just leave us alone? I want you OUT! Isn't it freaking O-B-V-I-O-U-S that we hate you????? Stop sticking to us like GLUE! April 10 2010
Because I don't like her, I never did. She thinks she's such a great actress....well I bet you didn't know that I HATE YOU! :D Rae and 2PM, thanks for putting a smile on my face. April 10 2010
Quote from the group "we hate annoying people" Remember, when somebody annoys you, it takes 42 muscles in your face to frown BUT it only takes 4 muscles to extend your arm and BITCH slap that motherfcker in the face. [Man...it really makes me wanna slap her now. OMG RAE STOP ME!] April 10 2010
if one day you realised that I stopped talking to you, then it's clear that you're the one I'm talking about. Get away from me, faker. April 15
Your picture puts a big smile on my face =) not like that XXX, makes me puke! Blekk! April 17 2010
Can I just delete xxx from my friends' list? April 15

And she also posted on facebook something about me.

You don’t deserve to be in Royalties anymore.

My name wasn’t written there but after the talk with Rae Rae well I knew that it was me whom she was referring to. The wound in my heart grew worse and I tried my best to be strong but how much more can a mangled heart take? Sorry but I need to catch my breath before I go on.

END OF PART TWO!!!

STUCK IN BETWEEN TWO GOOD THINGS IN LIFE

Several days ago, I decided to call up my close friend named Rae Rae to catch up with her as I hadn’t spoke to her for a while due to my busy schedule filled with extra-curricular activities and tuition classes. This is a similar conversation of those several phone calls which changed my life (I’d changed several parts which aren’t related or important but the key points are still here)

Ashley: Hey Rae! How are you?
Rae Rae: Just fine. I missed you. So, why are you calling me?
Ashley: Well, I was curious about something that Cosmos (Another friend) had posted
about on her facebook account several days ago. It said something about her
dislike towards another person so when I asked her, she told me to ask you. So,
who is it?
Rae Rae: Um… How do I put this to words…erm…Could I call you back? I need to call
Cosmos to talk to her.
Ashley: (suspicious but follows along) Sure. Um…okay then.
Rae Rae: I missed you.
Ashley: I missed you too. (Hangs up)

Second Phone Call

Ashley: Hey! So, um… who is it? What happened?
Rae Rae: Erm…why do you wanna know? Are you asking on someone’s behalf? Like
Shelly?
Ashley: (shocked) No. Why would I do that??? (mad at that remark but ignores it) I just
Wanted to know about it. Cosmos refuses to tell me when I’d confronted her
Several days ago so I’m asking you. Who is it?
Rae Rae: Erm…Okay. Who do you think it is?
Ashley: I don’t know. Erm…is it me or Mikayla (another friend)? < Actually I had
Already guessed whom it was referring to but I didn’t wanna say it out>
Rae Rae: No!!! Alrite then. It’s Shelly (New student in my school and my new friend)
Ashley: (Shocked) Huh? Oh. Why?
Rae: Are you close to Cosmos and the other Royalties (Our own friends group)?
Ashley: Yeah. Why?
Rae Rae: Well, several of them had complained about you. They said that you have been
Close to Shelly and Maggie lately.
Ashley: (Mad but controls temper) Yeah. So what? Who are they who said that? I wanna
Know who.
Rae Rae: Okay. Cosmos, Mikayla and Elaine. Cosmos said that you have been really
Close to them and you haven’t talked to her for a long time.
Ashley: That’s because she didn’t come to school and I talked to her on
Wednesday to discuss about the dancing thing with Shelly.
Rae Rae: Okay then. Imagine that there were two boats before you and you had to choose
One. Which would you choose? The Royalties or Shelly & Maggie?
Ashley: Both then. Can’t I be in the middle? Choice that I make in this question>
Rae Rae: (in a firm tone) No. You can only choose one based on your friendship.
Ashley: (confused) Erm… um… I don’t know. Can’t I be in the middle?
Rae Rae: No. You MUST choose one boat so which one?
Ashley: (pressured to answer, stressed out) Erm…the Royalties. Point but honestly which friends would ask their friend to choose between two
Groups of friends? It didn’t seem right.>
Rae Rae: Okay.
Ashley: What else did she say? (close to tears)
Rae Rae: She complained about Shelly and she couldn’t tell you because you were
Always in two unwanted companies and busy with them.
Ashley: No. She could have pulled me away from them and told me but she didn’t. Even
When I stood in front of her class with Kat, herself and Apple. She didn’t say a
Word. We were alone without those two. So, what is she talking about?
Rae Rae: She couldn’t. She said that she couldn’t because you were surrounded by those
Two girls. Even in the morning before the bell rings, you are always talking to
Them. Anyone who talks to me!!! Ask Ejay!!!>
Ashley: No!!! What do you expect me to do? Sit by myself everyday without any friends
And only with the Royalties who are on duty? I need some company and they
Are there too so why can’t I talk? (Voice cracking but holding back tears)
Rae Rae: I meant don’t be so close to them. You can talk but balance it out.
Ashley: I am trying to mix them to make my life easier but apparently some people can’t
Seem to get along with Shelly and Maggie. Mixing them? M&M sweets?>
Rae Rae: Don’t they have their own group of friends? Maggie has her own friends so
Can’t she sit with them? And why is Shelly sitting with you?
Ashley: Maggie had no one else as her boyfriend has left the school!!! I’m the closest to
Her in class!!!< Rae’s comment made me really pissed> She has no choice and
Shelly is with Jac. Are you sure that Cosmos doesn’t hate Shelly because she
Likes ‘him’?
Rae Rae: Of course not. She said that she is over him. < Something that I will point out
Later>
Ashley: Are you sure about that? She could have told you a different story but inside…
Rae Rae: She does not like him anymore. She hates it when Shelly ask her about ‘him’
And also her attitude.
Ashley: What’s wrong with her attitude and why would she ask Cosmos about ‘him’?
I’m closer to Shelly than Cosmos so there should be no reason to do so.
Rae Rae: She acts like a …b***h! And when I came to visit you all at school, she rolled
Her eyes. < Another misunderstanding>
Ashley: No she didn’t. She can’t help her attitude as someone had influenced her a little.
She liked you. She said that you were nice. I’m pretty sure that there’s some-
Thing else to it.
Rae Rae: So if you had to save someone between Cosmos and Shelly, who would you
Choose to save?
Ashley: Obviously both. I can’t let any of my friends die!!!
Rae Rae: Okay then. If both of them had a problem then who would you help?
Ashley: < Either answer and I’m screwed> Erm…depends on how serious it is.
Rae Rae: No. It’s just a problem that they face. So who? Based on who you are
Closer to.
Ashley: Erm…um…I don’t know. I will just help both.
Rae Rae: No. Only one answer.
Ashley: < As a friend to both, I am entitled to help both of them> um…Mayee then.
Rae Rae: Okay. Just spend more time with Cosmos and the rest. She is your best
Friend. < Another thing to point out>
Ashley: Hello? I had to be close you all before we became close friends, right?
So, why can’t I be close to them?
Rae Rae: Because Cosmos will NEVER accept them into our friends group!!! We
Are your close friends!!!
Ashley: Yeah but Shelly and I have much more in common compared to Cosmos and
Me!!! Its so unfair towards Maggie & Shelly. < Purely cruel!!!> It’s a free world
And there are no rules which said that I can’t only be close to a group. How about
When I head to college? (Furious)
Example:
Girl: Hey!!! Wanna be friends with me?
Ashley: Oh!!! Sorry but I can’t as I already have a group of friends and they don’t allow
Me to befriend anyone else.
Rae Rae: All the Royalties will never accept them!!! They hate them!!!
Ashley: They have done nothing wrong! Anyway, I have tuition now! Bye!
Rae Rae: You know we still love you, right? Sorry for breaking your heart. Are you al-
Right?
Ashley: (holding back tears) Yeah. I’m fine. Um…bye! (hangs up)

*blows nose* I need to stop now as I am in tears while I recall this bitter conversation.
END OF PART ONE!!!

Muse is no longer on the Eclipse Sooundtrack!!!!

Well now, here is some rather odd news, Muse will no longer be on the Eclipse soundtrack! Whaaaaaaat? Yeah, here are the details and I must say I am a little surprised! What will the vampires do while they play baseball now?!:

"Nah, it's gone," Howard tells us -- just a few months after he quipped to MTV: "We might even do something for the third one. How about that for a scoop?"

The news is surprising given the band is pals-y with Eclipse's director, David Slade (he helmed loads of Muse's early videos), and possibly pals-ier with Stephenie Meyer (there's even a photo of lead singer Matthew Bellamy cozying up to Twilight's dark-ish mistress on Muse's official site).

"Oh, it’s nothing to do with Stephenie, she’s totally cool," says Howard, beginning to explain how Muse have potentially broken their Twilight hat-trick. "It’s the people in the movie business, completely outside of the writers and the creative types, the non-creative types I suppose are the people who are quite hard to deal with in Hollywood, so it didn’t work out."

As for the original tune in question, which remains untitled, Howard says it would have fit Eclipse like Edward on Bella -- even though it wasn't directly inspired by the books or movies.

"It was a love song, so it’s a personal song, and it wasn’t really to do with the films. But it was sounding good," he says.

Muse still plans to release it, says Howard, even if you won't hear it on the Eclipse soundtrack. (Maybe you can just play it over the make-out scenes once the flick hits DVD.)

"Yeah, yeah, we sure will [release it]. I mean, it was great. We worked on it in Australia, we were ready to record, we were going to do some recording with Butch Vig, so we might still do it," he says. "I’m sure the song will definitely come to life for real at some point, but I think for this film it’s not going to happen."

The New Moon Companion...

This book is the right one for you if you are a huge New Moon fan like I am... This book contains absolutely (well, almost) everything you need to know about the events that took place during the production of the movie... Besides that, it also contains a whole lot of pictures from the movie which is really detailed...

Happy Birthday Hayley Williams!!!

It's Hayley's birthday today!!! In case you didn't know she's from Paramore and she's 21 today!!!

Favourite Books Of 2009

1. New Moon by Stephanie Meyer
2. Eclipse by Stephanie Meyer
3. Twilight by Stephanie Meyer
4. Pride and Prejudice by Jane Austen
5. Romeo and Juliet
6. Sense and Sensibility by Jane Austen
7. Angels and Demons by Dan Brown
8. Da Vinci Code by Dan Brown
9. New Moon Companion


Favourite Singers/ bands of 2009

1. Paramore ( Hayley Williams is a totally roker chick!)
2. Taylor Swift ( Her songs are close to my heart that I could almost relate to it)
3. Kristina Debarge (She has a beautiful voice even with upbeats tunes)
4. David Archuleta( The voice of an angel)
5. Trading Yesterdays(Great Band with some really catchy tunes)
6. Muse( Loved them since before twilight came out with a track from Muse)
7. Carrie Underwood( Strong vocals that would bring the house down)
8. Lady Gaga (Great songs from my greatest idol yet!!!)
9. Ashley Tisdale( Great since HSM and her latest album is rocking!)
10. Beyonce( My alter ego!!! Hehe!!! She has an amazing voice that is so beautiful and an amazing figure)

Favourite Actor/ Actress of 2009

1. Kirsten Stewart- She is an up and rising star. I loved her since the cold creek manor
movie despite her supporting role. I loved her role as Bella as she
potrays Bella perfectly in New Moon. Can’t wait to see her acting in
more movies and joining the likes of Jennifer Aniston, Cameron Diaz
and many more. Beauty and brains in one.
2. Robert Pattinson- Handsome, charming and a true gentleman as describe by many
people. Loved him since Harry Potter and The Goblet Of Fire with
role of Cedric Diggory, a pretty boy that matched Robert perfectly
but unfortunately he dies. He stole the show from Harry with his
charming looks and loveable accent. Loved his acting in New Moon
as it has improved tremendously .
3. Taylor Lautner- Crushable with the button cuteness looks. He is really easy going and
is dedicated to his work( he put on 30 pounds for Jacob’s role). He is
only 17 years and yet already successful with the help of twilight and
now New Moon.
4. Taylor Swift- Beautiful with a talent to write wonderful songs that relates to many.
She’s kind and loves to help charity and reach out a helping hand when
Needed. She’s great at giving advices to people too.
5. Lady Gaga- Mad fashion but brilliant mind. Her hair is so perfect with a pretty face to
match. Creative from dressing to her videos. Watch Bad Romance and
give me your opinion. She’s a pop icon despite her bed image but who can
blame her true nature.

Favourite Music Videos Of 2009

1. Love Story by Taylor Swift
2. Brick By Boring Brick by Paramore
3. You Belong With Me by Taylor Swift
4. Bad Romance by Lady Gaga
5. Love Games by Lady Gaga

Favourite Songs Of 2009

Since the year is finally coming to an end, I decided to list down my favourite things for fun and to let everyone get to know me better.
Favourite Songs Of 2009

1. Love Story by Taylor Swift
2. You Belong with Me by Taylor Swift
3. Brick By Boring Brick by Paramore
4. Sweet Dreams by Beyonce
5. Ignorance by Paramore
6. Bad Romance by Lady Gaga
7. Already Gone by Kelly Clarkson
8. Good Girl Go Bad by Cobra Starship feat. Leighton Meester
9. Uprising by Muse
10. It’s Alright, It’s Okay by Ashley Tisdale

Favourite Parts in New Moon

There were several parts in New Moon which caught my attention while I was reading the book. Here they are:

1. BELLA’S BIRTHDAY PARTY
Despite the awful ending of the party, I loved the party scene which was described as “Alice, I assumed had covered every flat surface with pink candles dozens of crystal bowls filled with hundreds of roses. There was a table with a white cloth draped over it beside Edward’s grand piano, holding a pink birthday cake, more roses, a stack of glass plates, and a small pile of silver-wrapped presents.” It was such a beautiful scene especially with all the Cullens in it and it would have been the perfect party that everyone had dreamed of.

2. JASPER TRIED TO TAKE A BITE OUT OFF BELLA
That was a really fast scene and Edward acted impulsively by pushing Bella out off the way to save her but she gets pushed into a table and she landed on scattered crystals. It was a really interesting scene because it shows us the true nature of vampires.

3. EDWARD’S FAREWELL SCENE WITH BELLA
I cried as I read this scene as it was so heart breaking. The break up was so painful and emotional that I felt through the pages and it saddened me. Stephanie put a lot of effort into this sad moment. Edward leaves Bella and tells her that he doesn’t want…yes, DON’T WANT her anymore!!! It was like a knife had been stabbed into Bella’s heart as he said “You’re not good for me, Bella.” Translation: You are not good enough for me. Ouch, that hurts really badly especially when a guy says that to you.

4. JACOB AND BELLA’S TALK
Bella confronts Jacob about his bizarre behavior and he tells her that they can’t be friends anymore. How much can a broken heart take being rejected twice by the people she loved? Poor Bella isn’t having much of a great year with plenty of heartaches and sorrow. She is left alone and her heart is broken at different places.

5. BELLA’S CLIFF DIVING STUNT
Bella jumps off the cliff that the La Push gang jumped off but she didn’t noticed the strong current of the water. She isn’t strong enough to swim to shore and gives up despite Edward’s pleading voice to keep swimming and she drowns but is saved by Jacob.

6. Saving Edward
Bella and Alice hurries to Italy to stop Edward from committing suicide by pleading to the Volturi leaders, Aro, Marcus and Caius. She stops Edward in time before he reveals himself to humans but is brought to see the Volturi alongside Bella despite his protest.

7. THE VOLTURI SCENE
Aro is fascinated by Bella’s gift to protect her mind and the complexity of their relationship that he questions Edward. He is faced with ‘La tua cantante’ which means singer that refers to Bella’s blood sings for Edward but he resist it. It was a remarkable scene as the Volturi leaders are conservative and their thoughts are different from other vampires. They are known as royal and at least three thousand years old but the remain hidden in the town of Volturra.

8. BACK TO FORKS
Bella and Edward returns to Forks with the other Cullens and Edward tells Bella the truth of them leaving Forks: to protect her from the vampire world. He promises to not leave Forks without her and tells Bella that he loves her. It was a beautiful scene as he talks to Bella and confesses his love to Bella. I could almost faint with the words that he used.

9. THE DISSCUSSION
Bella discusses with the Cullens on her immortality and they vote for it except Rosalie and Edward. Edward is devastated that he damages something in the beautiful Cullens home but I doubt that it would matter as the have lots of money and spend it endlessly. Carlisle promises after graduation though.

10. THE PROPOSAL
Edward proposes to Bella in an unformal manner if she wants him to change her and she is reluctant to accept that condition as she doesn’t want to spark gossip in the town. I loved this scene too as it was hilarious and I could die if Edward proposes to me.

Song lyrics for Already Gone by Kelly Clarkson

Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories, they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye
Even with our fists held high
It never would've worked out right
We were never meant for do or die

I didn't want us to burn out
I didn't come here to hold you
Now I can't stop

I want you to know that it doesn't matter
Where we take this road
Someone's gotta go
And I want you to know
You couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on
So I'm already gone

Looking at you makes it harder
But I know that you'll find another
That doesn't always make you want to cry
Started with a perfect kiss
Then we could feel the poison set in
Perfect couldn't keep this love alive
You know that I love you so
I love you enough to let you go

I want you to know that it doesn't matter
Where we take this road
Someone's gotta go
[ Kelly Clarkson Lyrics are found on www.songlyrics.com ]
And I want you to know
You couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on
So I'm already gone

I'm already gone, already gone
You can't make it feel right
When you know that it's wrong
I'm already gone, already gone
There's no moving on
So I'm already gone

Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories, they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye

I want you to know that it doesn't matter
Where we take this road
Someone's gotta go
And I want you to know
You couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on
So I'm already gone

I'm already gone, already gone
You can't make it feel right
When you know that it's wrong
I'm already gone, already gone
There's no moving on
So I'm already gone
This song is perfect for Eclipse when Bella visits Jacob and he tells her that he loves her but he knows that she loves Edward more that he is willing to let her go to show his love.

Wishing Star

She looked out the window with eyes that poured out tears and her heart sank that she'd barely noticed the dark shadows that filled her room. Her love and destiny had deserted her and she'd broken down without shame. He was her entire life and her only love that she'd trusted him to guard her deepest secrets but he'd never cherished them all. What did i do to deserve this misfourtune to fall upon me, she thought to herself. It was like darkness had consumed her and her heart bore a wound that would never heal even through endless time and love that would someday come. She'd cried for days in that tiny room and her grief never went away with the tears that she'd shed and her heart always called out for him. Life passed by and the tears passed gradually that she'd felt numb and emotionless but she'd carried on strong and never grief for him as she'd passed by him and new girlfriend with that long shiny hair and radiant porcelain skin that she'd seemed perfect compared to her. In the end, he'd come back for her, begging for her to take him back but the words that came out from her mouth was shocking to her and she told him that it's over between them. That night as she stared out her window, she spotted a wishing star and as it passed by she made a wish to find true love someday. She thought softly to herself that there is hope for all after all. The End!!!
Thanks for reading!!! I'd just decided to write this as i was bored but I hope that you enjoyed reading it!!! This is fully my own creatino and please do not copy this and claim it as you own.