Letting Go Of Love...

Okay, peeps sorry for not blogging for ages but I was BORED at home plus my final paper had ended on Tuesday so yeah, I was just being a little piggy as usual...

Anyway, there's something on my mind that was really bugging me these few days and I feel like I should express myself in words...It's something that I've kept inside my heart for a long time and reflecting back, I know I was a fool but I'm grown now and I know the only way to make myself stronger is to let someone go...

To my special someone,

Well, to be honest, I miss those days of walking by you and seeing you with your friends, having a great time. I miss those days of school where you walk by me without a care of my feelings inside. I miss those days that I watched you smile warmly at everyone else but me and I guess I was the only fool in this game for years. Thanks to a special friend who listened to me and allowed me to express what I'd kept inside, I know my mistakes now and the truth is I wasn't willing to let you go because I didn't want to and not because I really fell for you but it was because of the guilt I felt for putting you through the pain of losing someone dear to you thanks to a dumb mistake of mine. You were always my knight in shining armor in my imaginations but the simple truth is, reality is the only thing that matters so this letter to you is just to let you know that I'm sorry for messing up your life and this is the final time I'll ever think of you.

My feelings has changed now so I'm letting you go now and deleting your number from my phone to forget about you. Let's just say I'm moving on from that painful past and now, it's time for me to close that chapter in my life...Goodbye, special one..

I know what the saying "If You Love Someone, Set Them Free" but how can you possibly love someone who hates everything about you? That was what I faced for several years and I used to hurt because I wished that things were different but the real matter was nothing would ever happen... No matter how hard I tried, the gap just got wider since we're like Venus and Mars.

So, thank you for the memories but it's time for this story to have a new chapter for me. A game needs two players to work but I was the only one dumb enough to be caught in this game so it's my fault from the start. I used to blame you for this pain inside me and I used to hate listening to sad love songs because it reminded me of you. I used to cry whenever I watched those sad moments in any love movies where the girl gets hurt by the guy she loves because that was exactly how you pushed me away. I know you think I'm pretty strong and that I'd probably forgotten about you since last year but I'm pretty vulnerable and I didn't want you to see me cry because it would have showed you how much I cared.

I'm not those others girls what you are used to being with and I could even put on a smile even when I was dying inside because of you but that's all different now. I know now that I'm tough and in the end, I won this battle and my heart is alive again so thank you for bringing out the best in me.

That's all I have to say for the last time to this person so thank you again and goodbye...for good...

Sorry if I sound emo right now but now that I'm free to do anything, I had a lot of time to think back on a lot of mistakes that I did and I'm planning to not make the same mistakes again... I hope my next post wouldn't be so emo as this one is...

Thank you for reading my deep thoughts that was disturbing me for so long...

THE END!!!

A Day in My Life!!

Alright, I'm back for a little while and thank you to those who have viewed my blog and read the random stuff that I ramble about!!!

Thank you!!!
Terima Kasih!!!
Arigato!!!
Gracias!!
Xie Xie Ni!!!
Merci!!!
And finally, Kamsahamnida!!!

No, I do not speak all these languages but it would be so cool to do so, I just Googled the word thank you in different languages if you were wondering...Yup, I should have just stuck with the lie that I knew all these languages since it sounds better than just copying and pasting these words... I have to remember that next time...

Anyway, I am typing really fast since my class is about to start and I am supposed to be in class right now but I am waiting for my videos which is taking forever!!! My fingers are flying...literally on my keyboard and well, I'm really bored right now so I'm expressing my thoughts here...

B.O.R.E.D

Nope, I still feel bored and tired since I'm deprived of sleep due to my own fault for not studying for my exams until the last minute so my brain apparently didn't want to switch off no matter how long I was lying in the dark, waiting to sleep...Yeah, so now I look like a panda with the black eye thing going on for me and I'm a living dead since I'm mentally exhausted...Serves me right for not studying until the last moment....

Bet my lecturer will tell me that I'm at the wrong place when he sees me...

Lecturer: I'm sorry but I think you're at the wrong place.
Me: No, I'm suppose to be here. I'm a student.
Lecturer: You look terrible. Are you sure you're supposed to be here?
Me: Yes, where do you think I'm supposed to be?
Lecturer: The morgue...


Yup, I'm a little high on coffee since I need to stay awake for 6 hours of revision class today and the next two days since my LAST PAPER is on next Tuesday and since I committed suicide yesterday during my exam by being such an idiot, I need to at least bring myself back to the coma state by getting this next paper right so yeah, kudos to me...

So, today I am high on coffee and I look like a walking zombie plus I could fall asleep at any moment so yeah, great day ahead of me and it's only 10 am here...

Fantastic life....

Hope I don't drop dead by the end of today... That's another day in my life...

THE END!!

More Breaking Dawn Part 1 PICS!!!

As promised, I have found all the latest Breaking Dawn Part 1 pictures available on the web and since it's only two more weeks before the movie is released, I couldn't help myself but to UPLOAD ALL!!! I am so excited and I do hope you guys are too!!!

Check it out!!!



Jake, Leah and Seth are the new wolf gang in town but they're with the vampires this time again!!!Looks like the werewolves are mostly reunited with the vampires than they thought...



Another shot of the Jake but this time, he looks MAD like insane mad with the madness in his eyes!!! Wait, did I just use mad three times in this sentence???



Who says werewolves can't have fun??? This picture speaks for itself...I'm loving the love fest here and the view...The movies just keeps getting better each time!!!



Why so serious, Edward??? Aren't you too cool to be feeling the heat???



Bella: Now, what's his next move?
Edward: Bella, just move something before I go crazy.
Bella: Let me think, he can't know what I'm planning if I just think to myself.
Edward: Urgh...I know we have all eternity but can you take any more time.
Bella: What's the rush? It's not like you're getting any older.
Edward: Why did we get married again???

Just a little joke since I can't work out what they are actually saying...Looks like I'll have to watch the movie to find out....



Is it just me or did Kellan get bigger in size??? If his muscles get any bigger, I think his shirt might rip but not that I'm complaining if it does happen...



Alice: Do you get the feeling that they don't know what to do with us?
Jasper: What makes you think that?
Alice: Well, our hairstyles keep changing in every movie and they keep cutting my hair!
Jasper: And my hair is getting longer each movie.
Alice: Exactly. Before the next movie, I might actually have no hair left on my head if they keep this up.
Jasper: Well, I'll probably have a head full of long hair so I'll share some with you. They might as well change my name by then.
Alice: What's wrong with your name?
Jasper: Nothing but if my hair gets any longer, people can start calling me Hairy Potter...

Lame, I know but I was bored...Hehe!!!

That's all the pictures for now!!! Stay tuned for more news and hopefully, pictures too!!!

THE END!!!

Honesty and Weird quotes???

Well, my 6th paper is over yesterday so I'm so close to FREEDOM that I can almost taste it!!! Now, the wait shall begin since my fate is in the hands of hopefully a really kind and generous examiner somewhere in UK and if you're the unlucky one to get the paper with the really messy ballpoint written exam script which might be mine, here's a little tip before you read my essay, take two aspirins and calm yourself before the nightmare begins... That's all I can say right now...

Sorry for the messy writing but I did my best to write whatever I could vomit out at that time...No, there's no actual vomit on my papers because that would be disgusting but maybe just a little blood since the exam was a little like a battlefield to me...Hehe!! Sorry about that but it's not a war without a little bloodshed...

My precious survived after a day in the 'hospital' and going through surgery so HURRAY!!! It's ALIVE again!!! Looks like my kill list just got shorter by one object that I thought I killed but it didn't die...

What was I supposed to be doing??? Right, studying for the worst nightmare that I'll face this year... Another Economics paper but it's brutal this time... You know what's worse than going through the Core Chapters for a whole year??? Going through the Supplement Chapters at the same time and not having a clue on what I'm learning...

Did I seriously learn all this in a year??? How come I can't remember anything when I had attended all the classes like a good girl would since I had ditched classes in my High School years but it's a secret so SHHH!!!

And quote of the day???

"Everyone is entitled to their own opinion. It's just that yours is stupid."

And to prove my point,



Yeah, let's talk about dumb questions and sayings that a person can say to make a fool out of yourself...The word that really bugs me these days from a guy is "HI!"

Yes, it seems weird to hate the word for no apparent reasons but the thing is that's all they say!!! That's my BIG problem with the word!!! Hi and that's it??? I mean seriously??? Would it kill you to ask me how I am or how's life??? And welcome to the mysterious world of the guys' minds since the only words they can say to someone they haven't talked to for ages is hi...

Okay, I get it that guys might try to beat me up for that but honestly, why just hi???And next, comes the truth game...

Here's a situation where a girlfriend is trying on her new pair of jeans and her boyfriend is with her. The problem is the girl doesn't look good in the jeans so what now???
Girl: What do you think?
Guy: Erm...you look great today.
Girl: I mean does this pants make me look fat???

Well, here's the option for the guy to respond and the consequences of it... First, he could be honest and tell her she looks fat and risk losing his life in the process or tell her a lie... Yes, a little white lie to save his butt from being killed...

Well, there are actually two types of girls in this world which are the ones who accept only the 'truth' and the ones who accept the ugly truth... And I'm one of those in the latter category so hit me with the truth, man!!! Yes, I am a liar myself so I don't like chocolate covered lies from anyone so why can't you just say what's on your mind for once???Yes, next time you come up to me and say hi only, don't expect to walk out alive unless you have 9 lives because there's more to life than a simple "HI".



Like I said, honesty is the best policy...at times....Just make sure you're unbreakable if the truth really is ugly... Hehe!!!

Until next time, I'd better dig out that baseball bat and buy myself a spade to bury some bodies for the next person who doesn't have anything else in his dictionary.... Sad but true....

THE END!!!

Breaking Dawn and Vampire Frenzy...

Okay, I am already breaking my promise to myself to stop blogging until my exams are over but since I already broke the promise 2 post ago, forget about my vow of Chasity that I made to no one but myself... Plus I'm addicted with letting the entire world know what I'm up to since there's nothing else I can do...Yes, I'm on my study break now so this is the only thing I can do since my phone decided to die on me when I was relying on it so badly...

Curse you, phone...Seriously??? Of all the times to die and you do it when I need to use you??? I guess it's true what people say when you need something, it isn't there...Yes, there goes another thing that I killed on my long list of things that I either destroyed or killed while using it... My hands are like a killer machine which are born to destroy anything it touches... Luckily my sister can talk and do things herself or she might be on that list... So now, I'm probably the only teenager at home left with a phone that's alive but not functioning like a PHONE!!! Seriously, why is it still alive since it's practically dead anyway??? It's like a token to torment me every time I stare at it... WHY!?! WHY ME!?!?!

RIP MY BELOVED PHONE OF TWO YEARS...

The only phone I did throw around more than three times the entire time I had you...Well, I did fling it once while playing the bowling game in the phone but it was fine!!! And besides, it was only ONCE!!!

24 December 2009- 7 November 2011

Next topic, the music video of "A Thousand Years by Christina Perri is out"!!! And it's one of the songs from Breaking Dawn Part 1!!! I think the song fits really well to the whole concept of Edward and Bella's love and the music video is so beautiful...I love candles and the way it makes things look so peaceful and warm... Too bad my mum doesn't allow me to light any in my room since I am so clumsy that I might end up burning my entire house down...Hehe!!! Watch the video right here...

Just scroll down and you'll find it here...

There it is!!! I did say that I would update as much as possible on the Twilight series since my blog is dedicated to the entire Twilight series and I know most of my post are about my life and other obsession but hey, I don't live in America so getting the news isn't easy for me...

Frankly, I think it's cool that the Breaking Dawn OST has gone towards a more pop like feel rather than the usual indie music thing that was going on in the last three movies but I was disappointed that MUSE, the Music gods weren't on the soundtrack!!! I mean even Stephanie Meyers said that they were the inspiration to the story so why aren't they on the soundtrack??? Are they trying to ruin my life??? First, Paramore left after the Twilight OST and now, MUSE??? Has the world gone mad??? In case, those of you missed out on the entire soundtrack list...I'll post it here for you all so enjoy...

1. The Joy Formidable-Endtapes

2. Bruno Mars-It Will Rain

3. Sleeping At Last-Turning Page

4. Christina Perri-A Thousand Years

5. Theophilus London-Neighbours

6. The Belle Brigade-I Didn't Mean It

7. Noisettes-Sister Rosette (2011 Version)

8. Cider Sky-Northern Lights

9. Iron & Wine-Flightless Bird, American Mouth (Wedding Version)

10. Imperial Mammoth-Requiem on Water

11. Aqualung & Lucy Schwartz-Cold

12. Mia Maestro-Llovera

13. Carter Burwell-Love death Rebirth

So, there goes another of the series and I can't wait for it!!! My heart is pumping with adrenaline and I don't really care about my phone now although all the trailers are in my phone because Breaking Dawn Part 1 is coming soon and nothing is going to stop me from watching except maybe my mum...Hehe!!!

Well, I am dying to find out what's going on in Vampire Diaries since I am missing season 3 right now...The last time I checked Stefan was high on human blood and Damon is officially in love with Elena as we all know that... Caroline is a vampire living with her mother who is hunting vampires and she's in love with Matt and maybe even with Tyler who is a werewolf...Why is it in every movie and show that where there are vampires, there's bound to be werewolves??? I mean isn't the vampires a BIG problem already and now werewolves??? That's like double the trouble.... Bonnie is still the only witch and she's with Elena's brother, Jeremy and he's also seeing his two exs who were both vampires that died...What is it with the entire Gilbert family and dating vampires??? Elena's in a mess because she has lost her real parents as well as in the first season, losing her fake parents and yeah, her aunt who was turned into a vampire is dead too...And she's lost her hot vampire boyfriend who is following the half vampire and half werewolf Klaus since he owes Klaus for saving Damon's life in Season 2...

Yeah, the story is pretty much messed up now since Elena doesn't want to be a vampire and that's the only differences from other stories whereby the girls are all dying to be vampires...

Imagine this situation, a girl is alone with a vampire and she's not running despite the fact that the vampire could kill her in a heart beat...

Vampire: Aren't you afraid of me? I could kill you.

Girl: I don't care. I want you to suck my blood so I can be one of you.

Vampire: If say so but it might hurt.

Girl: I don't care. BITE ME! I don't care if I die! Bite me!!!

Seriously, it sounds as bad as you have read it in my mind... I imagined the girl as a cookie and she must be a dumb one because who in the right mind would want to be bitten??? The only few problems I have against that situation despite my love for vampire stories is:

1. Doesn't it hurt? I mean you're letting a person bite you when it might hurt you since they are bitting into your flesh like a piece of meat!!!

3. What makes you think you'll survive once the vampire has started drinking your blood??? I mean it's like drugs to a drug addict and you can't just pull away and ask the vampire to stop!!! That's like an invitation to drink more and before you know it, you're dead and empty of blood...

So, bad ideas if you're thinking of offering your blood since there's a 99-1 chance of you surviving after offering your blood to a vampire...Yes, it's sexy and romantic but hello??? You'll die most times as the probability of you surviving is as high as putting a chicken in a lion's cage in a zoo....

Yes, changed your mind yet??? I sure did after thinking about it....No way would I ever offer unless it's to save someone else who isn't the UNDEAD!!!

Well, that's all for now...Time to go back to studying for my exam tomorrow!!! Wish me luck and have a great life people!!!

THE END!!!

Studying and Mini Skirt Dilemma...

So, anyway, I'm back again to fill my free time before it's back to studying for my exam and the internet connection is SUPER SLOW at my home...I think it's worse than the connection at my college...

Does the world web hate me that much to torture me by being so slow???

Well, I was clearing my room yesterday and surprisingly I found lots of old newspaper cuttings which I'd kept and god knows why...I'm still trying to figure out why I kept it all too...I guess I'll never know...Yup, my room is pretty much in a mess again due to the madness of the exam stress... Thank you so much to myself for not studying till the last minute until I have to force myself to sit my lazy butt on the chair to study for at least an hour...Trust me, it's an impossible task for my butt to be glued to the study table chair unless I am doing anything else besides studying....How do those geniuses do it anyway??? Do they use Superglue to stick themselves in a corner for hours??? Maybe I should try that someday...

Why is it that my feet is cold despite the fact that I'm living in one of the HOTTEST country in the world??? It's like I stepped on ice barefooted for hours which would be really cold and I'll probably lose a toe or two...Who needs all ten toes right???

Did I announce that Vampire Diaries Season 3 is out??? And my heart is pumping because I have a movie date with my friends to watch Breaking Dawn Part 1...That is after I'd asked for my parent's permission to waste some brain cells obsessing over vampires and werewolves who seem to be half naked in nearly all their scenes...I don't mind that choice but you know how parents don't want their kids to lose their sanity by falling in love with some fictional character which is a little too late for me... Hehe!!!

Why is it that every girl seems to be obsessing about fashion these days??? I can't understand it because I'd rather throw all my money on my collection of Twilight goodies and on books compared to spending lots of money on outfits that I'd probably wouldn't wear due to my lack of self confidence...Yes, I am not those mini skirt/pants wearing kind of girl and don't expect me to change thanks to my chicken like thighs and leg...

Is it just me or is the skirt a little too short??? I mean I would definitely freeze to death if I wear that to college with those blazing air con that makes me feel like I'm frozen meat in a freezer at times...Honestly, I can't imagine how people can stand wearing this short skirt in cold weather because it seems like suicide to me....Nope, going to try it because I'm insane but just not that insane to try....I really salute those girls who can stand the cold weather...No pain no gain right???

Okay, this skirt is slightly longer than the previous one but still a BIG NO-NO for me unless I want to kill people with the view of my thunder thighs...Yup, I'm saving lots of people's lives so be thankful, people!!! And besides, this skirt would require constant leg shaving and I'm a really lazy person so it's not really a good idea to wear skirt if you don't shave your legs unless you're planning to compare who's the most hair between you and guys...Not that I mean that guys are like so hairy that the hair covers the entire leg but guys are supposedly more hair than the ladies which explains the reason why ladies are the gender that wears skirts...Ladies, hairy legs in a mini skirt is NOT a good idea if you're planning to attract guys so remember to shave for the guys' sake if not for yourself... Or be like me and avoid skirts if you're the lazy kind like me...

On the other hand, there are several advantages to wearing these type of skirts as my friends had told me although I have no experience in this field...

1. You'll look taller and your legs will look longer...Must be because the skirt is short that it looks like your legs had grown overnight...

2. For those ladies with sexy legs and high self confidence, this skirts are a MUST to show what they have and maybe even to boost their self confidence...

3. To give the guys some view to look at besides the usual view....This I am not really sure but I did come up with this point through observation...I noticed that guys would look at ladies wearing mini skirts or even tight skirts more often than a pretty girl in jeans or even pants...

What about the other side of wearing the skirt???

1. Limited movement due to the shortness of the skirt... It would be harder to bend down to pick something up compared to a girl wearing jeans.

2. The coldness due to the lack of cloth...Well, that is mainly my problem with the skirt...

3. Unwanted stares from guys...Especially for those shy types who don't enjoy drawing attention to themselves...

Well, it's entirely up to you whether you love wearing the skirt or not but I'd rather stick to my usual pants/jeans since I'm not a leg kind of girl...Hehe!!! And we all know which choice most guys would choose too... Hehe!!! Just kidding...

Anyway, back to my misery now to study since I obviously got slaughtered in my Finals papers so time to redeem myself at least to pass....Until next time then, stay true, peeps!!!

THE END!!!

My 2 months hiatus and Korean Fever!!!

Okay....I'm back and yes, I did break my promise to myself not to blog anymore until my A-Levels examination is over but honestly, I couldn't figure out what else to do since:

1. The internet connection at my college is killing me by being extremely slow....I think I grew a beard while waiting for the pages to load...
2. I can't go on Facebook since I did promise myself NOT to go on to avoid wasting 6 hours glued to my laptop screen and becoming like a zombie later... Bet Elaine would love to see that...
3. If I have to tweet anymore, I swear I will kill someone because it feels like I am talking to myself and that's a little weird... Okay, it is so boring to tweet always since no one responds because they are too busy tweeting about their own obsessions or life....

So, here I am to SPAM my blog with my random post again after being MIA for two months, I think...Sorry but I'm not good at keeping tabs on time...You want to know the time, get a watch people!!!

Firstly, I don't know how I am actually still calm and able to blog despite my MAJOR examination, maybe because my brain has some problem and I am not getting to proper PANIC symptoms most people get....Or maybe I am not even human... So, here's how I think I did on my past 5 papers so far...3 more to go then FREEDOM!!!

English Legal System- I wrote as fast as a snail could but I bet I did really badly since I could finish off my essays and ended up writing some points in point form...Hello? The examiner is probably thinking to himself/herself, it's an essay, dummy...What's the matter with you writing in point form??? There goes my A because of my slow thinking brain..

For my paper 2 which is the data response paper, I think I waste probably 7 marks for failing to answer one question properly due to my poor timing as usual...My dad is so going to kill me for making that simple mistake but I think I wrote rubbish but hopefully my examiner has mercy on me...
Contract-Worst paper EVER!!! I don't even know what I wrote!!! Is that even possible to happen??? The question was harder than the June 2011 paper and I think I blew that paper now.... I'll even be lucky to pass since I was crapping the entire paper and I doubt it made sense....

Tort-Not as bad as I thought but I know I could have done better if I had studied earlier....I managed to finish but I think my Section A was bad since I didn't understand what the question was asking me and that's not good at all!!!

Economics- Paper 2- Well, I managed to answer all but the only matter is whether it is correct since Econs seems to hate me no matter how hard I try.... I think that subject has a love-hate relationship with me even when I didn't do anything wrong to it!!!

Yes, my next paper is next week on Thursday so wish me luck...Hopefully I pass my Econs because I really don't want to sit for the paper again for a whole year!!!

What have I been up to since I wasn't online for so long??? Here's a hint...NOTHING!!!

My list of stuff to do after my exam is growing longer every year but I don't seem to finish it every time...

1. Watch Breaking Dawn with my High School friends to scream like a love sick girl as I watch my hot boyfriends on the screen in the cinema...Maybe not such a good idea now...
2. Go shopping with my bestie, Xheylie since she's been bugging me for a whole year now.... Despite the fact that she may end up buying the entire mall in the process...
3. Read the other couple law books my dad bought for me since I have nothing else to do until my results come out in January...
4. Annoy my older sister until she tries to kill me...Not like I don't do that already but it's my duty as a little sister to annoy my older sister...She should consider it an honor since it would be better than ignoring her...
5. Buy more story books since I been reading the same books for a whole year and I swear that I can tell you what's on every page if I have to read it another few times...
6. Maybe attend my college's gala night to have fun with my college friends since I didn't attend my High School prom last year....I have 6 unworn dresses in my wardrobe waiting for the right moment to shine...



Yes, this song is current on replay on my music list because the beat is just so catchy....Okay, I was in denial when I said I didn't like Super Junior but I was secretly listening to their songs all along... Thanks to a certain someone who introduced Sorry Sorry to me two years back... Trust me, I don't like any of the guys but the song is pretty catchy after a few runs...



Guess who's back and with a LOUD BOOM!!! It's Girls Generation...Yes, I am not exactly a true fan but I do love this new look on them...This song is so awesome I had to keep listening to it even if I disagree with their plastic surgeries and cuteness....Their cutness cannot be ignored so do not attempt to resist like me because you will fail like me again and fall in love with them.... 9 girls in a group dancing around in sexy outfits, what's not to love for guys???



Next, you have the slender figure girls in KARA who is also known for their 'butt dance' in MISTER....Watch the video and you'll understand why. This song is really about being independent woman and moving on strong.... To all girls, listen to this song and embrace it because this song is for the ladies...

Well, that's about all for now since I am starving now and I really need to eat my lunch or I might jump on someone and attack them....Till next time, peeps...

Stay tuned for more updates....
THE END!!!